Day 14 - What you wore today
I just realized, I am wearing the same thing today that I was wearing the say I started this, lol;.
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Friday, May 15, 2015
Saturday, May 9, 2015
30 Days - Day 13
Day 13 - Your week
Week has been quiet. Little man had a school trip, but everything else has been ok. Got a new pet, but got the wrong light, need to get the right now. Other than that, nothing...
Week has been quiet. Little man had a school trip, but everything else has been ok. Got a new pet, but got the wrong light, need to get the right now. Other than that, nothing...
30 Days - Day 12
Day 12 - What's In Your Bag?
~Claw Hair Clip
~Wallet
~Key chain (House keys, bottle opener, mace, gray whip, club cards)
~Notebook
~Pens
~Ear Buds
~Vape Juice
~Meds
~Lip Balm
~Ribbon from leathers
~Small plushie
~Claw Hair Clip
~Wallet
~Key chain (House keys, bottle opener, mace, gray whip, club cards)
~Notebook
~Pens
~Ear Buds
~Vape Juice
~Meds
~Lip Balm
~Ribbon from leathers
~Small plushie
30 Days - Day 10
Day 10 - What you wore today
Today, a skirt made of tee shirt material that is light gray with thick diagonal stripes of darker gray, peach, orange/ping, light blue and light green with a dark gray spaghetti strap tank top, dark gray cover, and a comfy, soft gray shoulder shall.
Today, a skirt made of tee shirt material that is light gray with thick diagonal stripes of darker gray, peach, orange/ping, light blue and light green with a dark gray spaghetti strap tank top, dark gray cover, and a comfy, soft gray shoulder shall.
30 Days - Day 9
Day 9 - Your Beliefs
I assume this is about spiritual and religious beliefs. I am a Pagan who leans Wiccan, but also a Bible reader, and in some aspects, verses that have help meaning to me over the years have been incorporated into the practice of my faith. I have several symbols from my childhood relationship with the higher power on my alter, a replica of my Grandmother's Virgin Mary statue is my Goddess representation on my alter. I need to set up my meditation corner again, ground and center myself again. Maybe
I assume this is about spiritual and religious beliefs. I am a Pagan who leans Wiccan, but also a Bible reader, and in some aspects, verses that have help meaning to me over the years have been incorporated into the practice of my faith. I have several symbols from my childhood relationship with the higher power on my alter, a replica of my Grandmother's Virgin Mary statue is my Goddess representation on my alter. I need to set up my meditation corner again, ground and center myself again. Maybe
30 Days - Day 8
Day 8 - A Moment
There was a moment when I was sure my theory about the past was proven. I saw a flash back of a past life, and it was beautiful. I may do a post on this moment at a later time. But who knows.
There was a moment when I was sure my theory about the past was proven. I saw a flash back of a past life, and it was beautiful. I may do a post on this moment at a later time. But who knows.
30 Days - Day 7
Day 7 - Your Best Friend
I have two. I just wrote a journal entry on Fet about one, so I will leave it there. My other best friend I have known for many many years, I met her the same time I met Master.
I have two. I just wrote a journal entry on Fet about one, so I will leave it there. My other best friend I have known for many many years, I met her the same time I met Master.
30 Days - Day 6
Day 6 - How was your day?
All in all, it has been a good day. Lots of things have gotten accomplished, some packing and sorting, some moving-style trash, and some every day cleaning. Thinking, reading, things like that too. Need to decide on dinner, lol
All in all, it has been a good day. Lots of things have gotten accomplished, some packing and sorting, some moving-style trash, and some every day cleaning. Thinking, reading, things like that too. Need to decide on dinner, lol
30 Days - Day 5
Day 5 - Your definition of love
This is probably the most difficult one. How do you define something you just feel? Something you just know? I know I can't. All I know is that I love Master, and that is enough said about that.
This is probably the most difficult one. How do you define something you just feel? Something you just know? I know I can't. All I know is that I love Master, and that is enough said about that.
30 Days - Day 4
Day 4 - What have you eaten today?
So far, coffee, and a breakfast sandwich of egg, sausage and cheese on a biscuit, Black Cherry Lemon Aide, A salad, and some grape tomatoes for a snack. Still not dinner time, yet, lol
This was an easy one
So far, coffee, and a breakfast sandwich of egg, sausage and cheese on a biscuit, Black Cherry Lemon Aide, A salad, and some grape tomatoes for a snack. Still not dinner time, yet, lol
This was an easy one
30 Days - Day 3
Day 3 - Your parents
Well, I really don't know how much my parents have to do with the context of this blog. I considered skipping this entry all together, but it didn't seem right. They are my background, they are where I came from. Growing up, I learned a lot by watching their relationship, the good times and the bad, and learned a lot more than they probably realized from watching it crumble.
I can honestly say I have learned from and taken cues from the cautionary tale that was my parents' marriage.
Well, I really don't know how much my parents have to do with the context of this blog. I considered skipping this entry all together, but it didn't seem right. They are my background, they are where I came from. Growing up, I learned a lot by watching their relationship, the good times and the bad, and learned a lot more than they probably realized from watching it crumble.
I can honestly say I have learned from and taken cues from the cautionary tale that was my parents' marriage.
30 Days - Day 2...
Day 2 - Your first love....
I struggled with this one. Those who have read my blog for a while know that nothing is ever what it seems. I tend to psychoanalyze things. Its not always the best thing to do, but I am who I am, lol. The way I see it, I have had two "first loves."
I have had the high school, teenage first love, where you figure out what love is, what it can be, and develop many of your basic relationship beliefs and needs. This is the time you figure all of that out, figure out what kind of person you want to spend your life with and what kind of person does not fit into your life's plan.
I have mentioned this first first love a few times in entries past. Sir P was my high school boyfriend. He was my first, and I developed much of my deeply rooted needs and wants in a partner while with him. We explored what love and sex were together.
I have also had the "first love" of an adult. The person who captures your heart, the first one as an adult who has won the heart and soul. Master is my first adult love. He is the Man with whom I completed my ideals about what love is, what it means, and what it can be. It is with Master that those ideas that started long ago came to fruition and I became all that I can be, and I surrendered all that I am.
The story of my first teenage love has been written, the final chapter of that love story has been penned. The love story of a lifetime, though, and, in fact, many lifetimes, many centuries, is still being written.
Is Brea Liom Tu... Forever
I struggled with this one. Those who have read my blog for a while know that nothing is ever what it seems. I tend to psychoanalyze things. Its not always the best thing to do, but I am who I am, lol. The way I see it, I have had two "first loves."
I have had the high school, teenage first love, where you figure out what love is, what it can be, and develop many of your basic relationship beliefs and needs. This is the time you figure all of that out, figure out what kind of person you want to spend your life with and what kind of person does not fit into your life's plan.
I have mentioned this first first love a few times in entries past. Sir P was my high school boyfriend. He was my first, and I developed much of my deeply rooted needs and wants in a partner while with him. We explored what love and sex were together.
I have also had the "first love" of an adult. The person who captures your heart, the first one as an adult who has won the heart and soul. Master is my first adult love. He is the Man with whom I completed my ideals about what love is, what it means, and what it can be. It is with Master that those ideas that started long ago came to fruition and I became all that I can be, and I surrendered all that I am.
The story of my first teenage love has been written, the final chapter of that love story has been penned. The love story of a lifetime, though, and, in fact, many lifetimes, many centuries, is still being written.
Is Brea Liom Tu... Forever
30 Days (Note)
Well, it was pointed out to me that I have stopped the 30 days thing again, lol... So, I will do quite a number of the entries today and see where we are when I stop today. I don't know why I always stop. Maybe because once things are written and posted, they can not be taken back, maybe I am afraid to hurt feelings, who knows.
Well, here we go, starting with Day 2... 30 Days....
Well, here we go, starting with Day 2... 30 Days....
Wednesday, January 8, 2014
30 Days of Submission -- Day 8
Is spanking or corporal punishment a part of your submission? Why or why not?
Right now, corporal punishment is not part of my submission. Mainly because I do not make it a habit to misbehave. When I do misbehave, just knowing Master is disappointed in me is enough to cause me to correct the behavior that is incorrect.
Will this become part of my submission in the future? It is quite possible, but that will be Master's decision, not mine.
Right now, corporal punishment is not part of my submission. Mainly because I do not make it a habit to misbehave. When I do misbehave, just knowing Master is disappointed in me is enough to cause me to correct the behavior that is incorrect.
Will this become part of my submission in the future? It is quite possible, but that will be Master's decision, not mine.
Tuesday, January 7, 2014
30 Days of Submission -- Day 7
Do you accept and/or expect discipline or punishments as a part of your submission? How do you feel about it?
It seems to e that there is always a question about "expecting" things like this. It seems like the people who write these questions do not know that there is a difference between punishment and discipline.
I have disciplined my body to react to His touch, His voice, to not orgasm without His permission, and to orgasm within seconds of His permission being given. Discipline is teaching and training your body to do something, to react a specific way, and to obey a specific order. You often hear the military use the word "discipline" in this way. This is the way to use the term that I have always used.
To expect something is to become complacent. Complacementness leads to a slave who does not behave, who becomes too comfortable with her position. To expect Master to do something is, in a way, topping from the bottom. I do not expect punishment when I misbehave, but, when Master does administer a punishment, I accept it with dignity and grace. Punishment is not always corporal, either. Just the disappointment in His voice or the look of displeasure from Him really is enough of a punishment in my mind, and causes a correction in my behavior.
Ok, I am caught up now.
It seems to e that there is always a question about "expecting" things like this. It seems like the people who write these questions do not know that there is a difference between punishment and discipline.
I have disciplined my body to react to His touch, His voice, to not orgasm without His permission, and to orgasm within seconds of His permission being given. Discipline is teaching and training your body to do something, to react a specific way, and to obey a specific order. You often hear the military use the word "discipline" in this way. This is the way to use the term that I have always used.
To expect something is to become complacent. Complacementness leads to a slave who does not behave, who becomes too comfortable with her position. To expect Master to do something is, in a way, topping from the bottom. I do not expect punishment when I misbehave, but, when Master does administer a punishment, I accept it with dignity and grace. Punishment is not always corporal, either. Just the disappointment in His voice or the look of displeasure from Him really is enough of a punishment in my mind, and causes a correction in my behavior.
Ok, I am caught up now.
30 Days of Submission -- Day 6
What do you feel are the roots of your submission? Do you think it has
something to do with childhood? Is it a relationship management tool as
in the practice of domestic discipline? Is it a sexual thrill or
something else?
My submission started at a VERY young age. The slavehood within my heart, I feel, is hard wired there. It is the very essence of my being, what I was always supposed to be. The slavehood within my relationship is a management tool to keep ME in line. Without that strong Dominance from Master, I would be lost, without direction. It is more than a sexual thrill, it is fulfilling what I really am.
My submission started at a VERY young age. The slavehood within my heart, I feel, is hard wired there. It is the very essence of my being, what I was always supposed to be. The slavehood within my relationship is a management tool to keep ME in line. Without that strong Dominance from Master, I would be lost, without direction. It is more than a sexual thrill, it is fulfilling what I really am.
30 Days of Submission -- Day 5
Have you been or are you in a dominant/submissive dynamic relationship
or is this new to you? Have you been in more than one D/s relationship?
How were they the same? How were they different? What is unique about
your relationships in your mind?
I have been a submissive my whole life and, as such, have been in quite a few D/s dynamic relationships. This is, if I am being completely honest, though, my first true M/s relationship. I don't think it is fair to compare past relationships with this one to see how they are the same and how they differ. Every Dominant is different, and so every relationship is different, even if they have the same elements. Comparing one relationship to others is one way to fail in the current one, in my opinion.
In my current relationship, the uniqueness comes from Master's methods and Master's style.
I have been a submissive my whole life and, as such, have been in quite a few D/s dynamic relationships. This is, if I am being completely honest, though, my first true M/s relationship. I don't think it is fair to compare past relationships with this one to see how they are the same and how they differ. Every Dominant is different, and so every relationship is different, even if they have the same elements. Comparing one relationship to others is one way to fail in the current one, in my opinion.
In my current relationship, the uniqueness comes from Master's methods and Master's style.
Monday, January 6, 2014
30 Days of Submission -- Day 4
Do you switch into a dominant role at any time? If you are in a domestic
discipline relationship, are there things that you maintain control
over? Are you a “switch” in BDSM terms? If not, have you ever thought
about it or given thought to why it’s not for you?
I do not have a Dominant bone in my body. While this is true, I do, at times, have a sadistic streak when it comes to my on-again-off-again-on-again girlfriend. She just brings it out in me. I don't see what I do at home as maintaining control over the household, but I see running the household as part of my service to Master, keeping His home running smoothly. In BDSM terms, I am not a switch. I, personally, don't think a slave can be a switch. It is not something I have ever really considered since being in control, even if it is just for a single scene, is not something I am interested in or comfortable doing.
(Almost caught up now, lol)
I do not have a Dominant bone in my body. While this is true, I do, at times, have a sadistic streak when it comes to my on-again-off-again-on-again girlfriend. She just brings it out in me. I don't see what I do at home as maintaining control over the household, but I see running the household as part of my service to Master, keeping His home running smoothly. In BDSM terms, I am not a switch. I, personally, don't think a slave can be a switch. It is not something I have ever really considered since being in control, even if it is just for a single scene, is not something I am interested in or comfortable doing.
(Almost caught up now, lol)
30 Days of Submission -- Day 3
How do you know you are submissive or have the potential to be submissive? How do you feel when you express your submission?
There was always that feeling deep within my soul that I was different from my friends. I was more submissive around them, I was the one they could boss around. I was born with a slave's heart.
When I submit, I feel whole, right. I feel like I can fully be myself and I don't have to hide anything from anyone.
There was always that feeling deep within my soul that I was different from my friends. I was more submissive around them, I was the one they could boss around. I was born with a slave's heart.
When I submit, I feel whole, right. I feel like I can fully be myself and I don't have to hide anything from anyone.
30 Days of Submission-- Day 2
Describe who you might submit to and how. Are you exclusively submissive
in marriage or just in the bedroom? Are you submissive only in the
context of a scene or in a role or throughout your daily life? Are you
submissive to play partners or only in the context of a relationship?
I submit only to Master. He has proven Himself to be honorable, honest, loving, and deserving of my submission. I strive to be a 24/7 slave to Master. I do fumble at times, but I strive to be the best I can be.
I submit only to Master. He has proven Himself to be honorable, honest, loving, and deserving of my submission. I strive to be a 24/7 slave to Master. I do fumble at times, but I strive to be the best I can be.
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