Accountability

Well, it’s the start of the new year. Time to renew the promises made last year that weren’t upheld.
I usually don’t make a resolution to begin the new year. I don’t see the point of becoming a self professed martyr when you don’t live up to the resolutions. So, I have never made one seriously as an adult. Oh, yeah, as a kid or teen I made the usual ones, get a boyfriend during the year, to pass every single test I took, etc… But as an adult? Never.
So, why change that this year? Because something needs to change. Over the last 12 months, I have gained 25 pounds. That might not sound like too much, but for me, it is. It has caused the effects of my PCOS to be worse, more visible, and has severely effected my self esteem.
So, my goal for this year is to drop the 25 pounds I gained last year plus 10 more (I was already slightly overweight to begin with). Even though I have the “pounds” goal, I will not o seas over it. I will, however, work on toning my stomach, getting my legs back to the killer gams I had growing up (my legs were one of my two best features), and I will tighten my tushy.
I want to look good when stretched out in the suspension cuffs that hang from the door of our playroom. I want Master to be able to look at me and WANT to touch, tickle, and stroke my tummy, hell, I WANT to be able to not be embarrassed when I know Master is trying to get a glance at my tummy. I WANT to be able to go out in public and not have to constantly worry about if my stomach has popped out the bottom of my shirt, or if my muffin top is showing. I want to feel good about the way I look for the first time in years.
Over the next week or so I need to join some accountability blog circles, find a work out partner who will walk/run with me, and set up realistic goals for myself. I need to really clean out my fridge and pantry of the junk, and I need to find my favorite skirt under the junk in my closet to use as motivation.
Who is with me on this goal?

Resolutions

Most people make resolutions for New Years. I am fortunate enough that, if I fail to make one then or if I break it quickly, my birthday is at the start of the year. I always try to make a Birthday Resolution, something I will do or work on starting with my birthday.
This year I have a few. The first is that I will drop 60 pounds by my 32nd birthday. That will put me at a weight I am more comfortable with. Whatever it takes, walking, going to the gym, diet, anything, I will drop 60 pounds in the next year.
I will do some form of dance 4 hours a week, at least. I will not overdo it like I have in the past and I will not obsess about perfection. The four hours will not all be on pointe, and some of the time will be spent stretching and regaining flexibility.
I will take the time to teach more, actually explaining what this lifestyle is about when asked. I will not rush into just explaining the physical aspects, but also the mental, emotional, and physical. How it feels to be utterly at the mercy of a person, the trust needed to place your very life in a person's hands, literally.
I will blog more, at least twice a week. I have several different ways I ca blog, I can do it right from Blogger's web site, I can text entries, and I can email them so I have no excuses, I will blog twice a week.
That is all I can think of for now, but I will add more if I think of more.