I am always the most nervous about telling a new partner about my weight and build. I am a larger woman, some would call me fat, others thick. I have come to terms with my body though.
I have had two wonderful lovers who have made me realize I AM sexy, I AM desirable. I have accepted the way I am now.
One of those lovers still tells me every day He finds me attractive, that I am sexy. My Husband and Master. He shows me that my body is not something to be ashamed of, that every stretch mark, every ounce of extra weight, every flesh dimple, and every scar tells part of my story.
The other is my ex girlfriend. She still lets me know I am attractive to her.
They are the only two people I have felt comfortable bearing my soul to in such an intimate and vulnerable way.
I revel in my body now. I know I am attractive and sexy to others. I see myself as sexy, as a sexual creature, as a person who is desirable.
Even though I have accepted my body and being a sexual creature that does not mean everyone has. So it is a balancing act, trying to decide when to tell a potential new partner about my size. It's also part of why I have full length pics on Fet. I'm not hiding my body, but I also don't have nudes.
I am comfortable sharing my body with partners, but not with the world just yet.
So, why write this now? We are talking to someone who has the potential to be a new partner, but I do not know about how she might react to my size. I don't want to ruin things before they get started, but I also do t want her to think I hid my size when Master expresses a need for total honesty.
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