Don't know what to do

I really don't know what to do, where to write this, or even how it will be perceived, since perception is everything with any written medium, so I want to preface this entry by saying that this is not an attack, it is not a guilt trip, it is not a complaint, it is not an argument, it is not to start a fight, it has no purpose beside just getting stuff off my chest, getting it out, not letting it build up, in fact, I almost feel guilty posting this.
I have been considering letting an old friend session me, online, like the days of old. The only issue is that I wouldn't really get anything out of it besides a little dirty talk. It is kind of difficult to whip your own back while your hands are both cuffed above your head. There is only so much dirty messages can do for me. And, if I wanted to use my imagination and read things, I would read one of the numerous erotic short stories I have on my ereader.
Most of the time, I have only my fingers and vibes, which, it has been pointed out to me many times, I have more vibes than any woman really should have.
I know my sister, our friend and I probably forced Master to let me create the playroom.
In a way, the free time I am allowed every week has been a good thing because I don't have to ask Master for solo time and I don't have to bother Him every few days or so. But, on the other hand, not having to ask Him for solo time if I don't use it more often than a set number of times has caused me to, honestly, become more complacent, in a way. Honestly, and I hate to admit this, I really have not slept fettered, or even cuffed, since the move.
I have tried to be better about forcing myself on Master when He is home lately, but I probably pushed another issue on Him too much last time He was home, masking my own selfish reasons. But I am over those reasons now.
I made the same offense tonight that my sister did. Knowing Master probably had a little one on one private time with my sister last night since she was leaving for her summer job this morning, I sent Him an email offering one on one private time tonight. Did I want to fool around? Yes, I did, but if there is one thing I should know as a slave, especially as His slave, it is that I have my nights of allowed solo play, and those should be enough, and if Master wants to fool around, He will tell me.
I guess I just need to turn my mind off and go to bed or something, maybe I need to use a solo night, I don't know. I want to go to the playroom and at least grab the cuffs while doing the solo time with the vibe, but as a slave, I shouldn't actually play in the playroom without Master's permission, and the first time the playroom is used, it should be unsolicited by me and it should be Master's decision.