I have been asked several times, over and over, what makes me a pain slut, especially since, from the outside perspective, it seems like I am not what most would consider a pain slut.
There are different kinds of pain sluts, just like there are different kinds of slaves and Dom/mes.
So, what kind of pain slut am I? I am, absolutely, a physical pain slut. Ask anyone who knows me, I can take most kind of pain in stride and, usually, turn it into a very pleasurable experience (well, except dental pain, but who really can stand that kind of pain?). I even achieved what many women dream about, an orgasmic birth (to the shock and wonderment of both Master and the midwife who was there). I, unlike many pain sluts I know, do not go seeking out the pain, though. I will, when the mood and scene are right, beg Master to whip me or to belt me, He can have me literally eating out of the palm of His hand at some points if He allows the kiss of the belt. But, I do not NEED that pain every single day. Master is also not the typical Master to a pain slut in that He does not like to leave marks. He thinks it is the same thing as a cardinal sin to mark and mar His property with welts from the kiss of the leather. I treasure that kiss, cherish the caress of the whip, savor the bite of a paddle. And, when Master thinks I have earned them, I do get those feelings.
But, there is another side of being a pain slut that many do not think of. It is the side Master has helped me realize I revel in. The mental side of being a pain slut is just as exhilarating as the physical. This is the side Master chooses to engage in more often. There is nothing like hearing, in Master's sexy southern drawl, "beg for it you filthy whore." The degradation of being called what most would consider a vile name, to me, is a turn on. The mental pain of a put down to most would be a blow to their self esteem. But to me, the wonderful chill of a vile put down, or the twinge of hurt from a filthy insult is pure bliss for me. And Master is a mental sadist, He excels at the art of the mental pain, the mental torment. He can say things to me at any time in any situation and it is torment. He finds it a challenge to manipulate a submissive to do exactly what He wants them to do, even to the point that she does not know He is even doing it. He has promised Himself to only use His powers for good, though, lol.
So, whereas in the past, I was a complete physical pain slut with no care for the mental aspect of it, I think I am now more well rounded and better able to explore and revel in both sides of the pain. In fact, I find myself enjoying the mental aspect of it more now!
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