I, generally, am well behaved. It is not fear of discipline that keeps me this way, but the fear of just upsetting Master. I do, however, have areas of weakness, which are evident, and Master knows what they are.
I am afraid I have let Master down in this area, yet again. You ever hear the expression when the cats away the mice will play? Well, with me, it is just like that, unfortunately. When Master is away, I tend to slack off, a lot, and don't do what it is I am supposed to be doing. I come up with excuses and reasons that sound fine to my own ears, but I know, deep down, they will not fly with Master.
I will do well for a few days, then stop. I will send pics of what I have done, then, seemingly suddenly, stop.
So, Master asked me today, half to Himself, and half to me, what He is supposed to do when I flat out don't do what I am supposed to do? It seems I do take advantage of the fact that He is not home often and that when He is home, the time is so little that He does not want to deal with discipline. So I have resolved to come up with suggestions Master can consider when and if He feels I need the discipline.
Some of the suggestions are for when He is home, and some are for when He is on the road. With the submission of these suggestions, Master also is being given the right, officially, to ask for pictures of any work I am to complete during the day with no notice if the pictures are not sent of my own accord.
These are the suggestions I have come up with are:
Sleeping clothed. Master has gotten me used to sleeping naked and I really hate sleeping clothed.
Sleeping fully cuffed with hands behind my back or ankles cuffed together. Sleeping in this manner will be uncomfortable, forcing me to think about the transgression and reflect on how to not disobey Master again.
While Master is home, sleeping chained to the floor via collar and leash. This can be done while Master is not home as well.
Loss of name. In this one, Master would have me refer to myself in the third person, as Master's girl, this one, or slave, at all times, to remind myself that I am but Master's property.
Paper and/or internet journal entries about the transgression, what it was, why it happened, how to prevent it from happening again, how the transgression reflects on Master, things like that.
Removal of privileges, things like the hour between bed time and lights out, solo time, completion of solo time, things like that. Some of the freedoms I have been granted by Master due to Him being away from home so much.
These are only a few ideas of discipline Master may choose to employ in the future, should He so choose to do so.
Suggestion, maybe as a punishment, maybe just as a way to stay closer when he's away......Do the two of you ever play with orgasm control. That is he could set a certain time period of masturbation without gratification. That is for you to think of him, situations, fantasies that all revolve around him. Get as close to the big finish as quickly as possible, yet never go over the edge. Then journal the experience for him pro's, con's graphic details.
ReplyDeleteLol, Alpha, You and Master must be of the same mind set, because He loves to do this. He also likes to call me out of the blue and just issue the order to orgasm, knowing it will be followed. I can orgasm on command so He has fun playing with that ability when He feels it appropriate.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the comment!