WTF is wrong with me??

What the hell is wrong with me? Why am I acting and feeling like this? I don't know, but I don't like it.
I am starting to have those feelings of being left out, or being ignored. I know that is probably not the case, but I still feel that way. Or like I am not good enough.
If Master and I are in th emiddle of a text conversation, suddenly, in the middle of it, He will send a text yelling at me for texting so often. WTF? I guess I am doing it wrong...
Or today, I am upset because He has yelled at me, but He has not called, I have not spoken to Him since 7 last night!
I have been spending the entire day cleaning the house and sending Master pictures of the progress, and He is finding little things to nit pick about it all. All I was asking was for a "Looking good, keep it up" or a "Looks better" but, Noooooooo I get nit picking... I guess its just not good enough.
Our son has been a terror and a half, and Master knows it is hard for me to deal with him while He is on the road, and I know I have to do it, but I get no support from Him, just yelled at and a command on how to handle it, but no actual support.
My birthday is coming up, my 30th, and I guess I am just a little weird about it, and, yes, Master got me a great gift, but it really isn't about that. I am just not looking forward to spending the birthday alone, especially with what this birthday means.
I don't know why I am feeling like this, and, yes, I know, some of you will be saying "Oh, she is just being emo" but you know what, its how I feel, and I am not holding the emotions in, so oh well, you don't like it, don't read it.
Sometimes I wonder why I even leave my phone on, if I can't text right, if no one is going to call, if all that is going ot happen is I am going to get yelled at.
And I promised myself that I would not do this, but I am going to do it anyway. Does He send her texts that say "GDI, stop sending texts at 5 second intervals" during a conversation? Probably not. Oh well.