He is gone

Why does it always upset me this much when He leaves? I had Him home for a week and most wives with husbands in Master's profession are ready to kill their husbands by that time, but not me, I love having Him home that long. It is saying goodbye I can't stand, No matter how much time He is home, saying goodbye is always hard for me. And, as usual, I was a blubbering mess...
I know it is not easy on Him to leave, and I know my blubbering probably doesn't make it easier, but I can't help it sometimes. I hate to see Him leave, knowing it will be weeks before He is home again.
I have people to support me, online, but not really in person. My bff and I talk a lot when He is gone, but I don't like to take time away from her with her Sir. The girls in the group I am in for support of each other (all of our husbands are in the same profession) all act like they don't like their husbands a lot, and Tiger_Eyes does not understand too well what I mean when we talk. So who does that leave me with to help me in those wee hours of the mornign when the loneliness hits and I feel like I can't do it? I don't want to tell Master becasue I don't want to bring Him down, although I usually do wind up telling Him, and He helps me get through it. But, who can I turn to in those moments I need another woman to talk to? Who can I talk to when I need someone who lives the lifestyle who knows what I mean?
I just feel lost sometimes, lol... I know that me crying tonight when I said goodbye to Him didn't help matters, but I can't help it sometimes. I know He would have been angry if I had held it all in and let it all fester as I tend to do, so I let it out and let Him see the emotions. He says the time He is out goes fast because I don't miss Him anymore and that is not true, I hate when He is out on the road, I miss Him like crazy, I just try to fill my days with things to keep busy so I don't notice how long He is out. I know this is rambling, lol. I just don't know where else to write this. I do it in teh blog my family can see they will try to pull their normal shit of trying to get me to leave Him (they don't like that I am happy, in my truely submissive nature, I always caved to them, this is the first time I am standing up to them and they don't like it), and the girls in the group for wives of Master's profession don't like their husbands most of the time, so they wouldn't understand my feelings. So, here I vent, lol...