The ONly Place

After some recent events, this is the only place I can go right now to vent and bitch and get a lot of stuff out. There is just some stuff I can't go to Master with, or that I feel like I am overdoing the venting and relying on Master to help me get through some of this stuff, my bff has some of her own issues and my LS sister also has some issues right ow, so going to them would not be fair. I just don't know where to go to get some of this stuff out and I need to before I blow.
Before Master, there was an abusive ass hole. He was verbally and physically abusive. And, now, after what my biological sister pulled today, it is no wonder why I stayed with him, why I didn't notice the abuse until later. I had grown up with it, and not from my parents, either, from my sisters. I was the oldest, and even though, they still put me down at every opportunity. They still said hurtful and hateful things.
It is no wonder I was with an abusive ass, because that is how I grew up and what I thought was a normal interaction between peers.
What it really was, however, was the sisters taking my naturally submissive nature and pouncing on it. They treated the submissive in me like a doormat and like dirt under their feet. And now, it is starting all over again, and they are even worse because I am standing up for myself.
One would think they would be happy for us with this new opportunity Master has been given. But, nope. They do not wish us luck, they do not act happy for us, instead, they mock and put down. They begrudge our happiness. They mock our small successes. Why? Jealousy? Spite? Anger that they are not doing what they want? I do not know.
But, what they say, what they do, is still considered mental, psychological, and verbal abuse. One of them wonders why I can't write scripts. Well, if I could, she would never leave me alone and expect me to feed her habit with fraudulent scripts.
Why do I let them do this to me? Is it weakness? Is it just habit? Why do I let them make me feel worthless? Why do I let them make me feel like I do not deserve even the slightest scrap of happiness? Why do I let them put me down to the point that I don't feel like getting out of bed in the morning?
How long can I expect Master to put up with a wife who is constantly made to feel like she is nothing be those who are supposed to support her no matter what? How many times should Master have to come home to find me in tears because of something they said? Why can't they just recognize what they are doing? Why do they have to fight the fact that I am not like them? When will they see that does not make me weak? They all have dominant personalities, but, will they always take advantage of my submissiveness and always be there to put me down? Must they always knock me down a few pegs when I am feeling good and when I am actually happy?