New Year's Musings

Another year is over and a new one is just starting. Everyone tries to make resolutions for the new year, but they hardly ever last. If you are Catholic, you get a do-over for Lent, but, let's face it, those don't last too long after Easter, either, lol, and I am not Catholic.
So, what am I going to try to accomplish this year? Well, I am set to graduate with my AA in Psychology in February of 2011 right now, so maybe keep that on track, lol. But other then that, really nothing too big, I guess.
I have recently discovered my strong suit as far as spirituality is concerned. I find I am more spiritual and my inner thoughts and, yes, even power, is stronger during and right after sex. Some would call it sexual magic, or magick, so I do want to explore that a little more. Research it and meditate about it. It is hard to explain to anyone who is not a Wiccan, but when I am engaged in sex, or thinking about sex, or working on my degree or my column, I feel like I have a gift that I share with others. It may also just be that I am good at what I do, lol. I am sure Freud would have some reason why I feel this power when it comes to sex.
So, in 2010, I plan to explore the power of sexuality more, maybe work on expanding my nature vs nurture thoughts from a simple paper to a more planned out and researched thesis. I just have a fascination with the nature vs nurture idea that goes beyond the typical gay vs straight arguments, and applying it to everything sexual.
As far as my relationship(s) go(es), I do hope to help Master find another girl who will be as committed as we are to the relationship. We have not had much luck lately with that. A real sister will come with time. I think we have both been hurt by my former(?) sister and need to take some time to get over that, but I think we have both known it was heading towards over for a little while now, so, mentally, we have processed it. Right now, I am just wanting her to contact us for some closure, if not for me and her, then at least for Master.
I also want to try to not push too much with Master. I have a history of pushing Him too much and causing our relationship to take two steps back because I push too hard for the one step forward we took. Just continue to grow and learn from and with each other and let things progress on their own. All part of learning to be more patient.
That is something I have been needing to work on for quite some time, being more patient. The one submissive quality I do not possess is being patient. I tend to want things when I want them and don't like to wait for them. I guess I need to work on that, lol.
Well, there is a little over 3 hours remaining in 2009 in my time zone. So, raise a glass and toast the old year then ring in the new one. Lets hope 2010 is better for everyone then 2009 was.