One of my biggest fears is disappointing Master. I hate the thought of letting Him down. I crave His approval so much that I hate to think of Him being upset with me, of not living up tot he standard He expects me to live up to. I don't exactly fear the punishment I may receive, oh no, I fear something far worse then that.
I fear the look. That look in Master's eyes, that look that says He is upset with me. That look strikes more fear in my mind then any punishment ever can.
There really have not been that many times that I have seen that look in Master's eyes. That hurt and betrayal when I have upset Him. That look is worse then anything.
What follows is no picnic either. Master is a genius when it comes to mind fucking. He is a master of mental punishment. That is usually what He does, some sort of mental punishment.
Thankfully this has only happened once or twice to me, but it effected me enough that I try to not do anything to cause Him to feel it is warranted again.
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