Getting Back...

I’m sitting here thinking about how I’m going to return to the way things were, return to the dynamic, return to my role. If Master will allow me to find and follow the lifeline, if He is still willing to throw it.
The things I used to do, I can start doing again. I can start to cover again, wearing skirts again, doing slave rituals every day again, do the homemaker things better than I have ever done, focusing more on Master’s needs or wants than my own needs or wants, trusting that Master knows best and has my best interests at heart when He makes decisions, obey Master’s wishes with how much coffee I drink.
Other steps I can take are to find something to wear daily as a collar, something new that has symbolizes the recommitment to the dynamic. I’m thinking of doing something drastic. This, though, I’m going to think on before I do it and I’m not going to post about it until after I do it.
I hope and pray I’m offered the lifeline.

Re-slave....

Is that even a word? What’s the phrase or term to use? Re-slaving? The Slavegirl Returns? Returning Home? I don’t exactly know what to call it. But I have fallen off the slavegirl wagon. It used to be a point of pride for Master, my obedience and discipline as a slave.
I have fallen further off the wagon than I ever have before. I need to find my way back. Need to find the lifeline Master always leaves out for me, if He is still offering it. I need to return to my slavegirl roots.
I need to rededicate myself to this lifestyle, to Master, and to my role. If Master will still have me, still accept me as His.
I will find a way, if it’s accepted.

Head Space

We talk a lot in this lifestyle about head space. About being in the proper head space. And how head space can effect every aspect of a dynamic. But, whose responsibility is it to obtain and keep proper head space?
Some may argue that it is the Dominant’s responsibility to maintain their sub’s head space. But, isn’t it a more pressing responsibility of the sub to inform their Dominant of their current head space status? It is said over and over again that Dominants are not mind readers. How can they fulfill their responsibilities to care for their sub’s mental state if they don’t know there is an issue?
Case in point, the other day, I was in a bad head space. Master knew something was wrong because I shut down. When He finally got me to talk about it, I was deep into the space. Once I opened up, I was too deep into the bad head space for Master to get me out of it. I’m still in that space. I’m not as bad right now.

Safeword

The sub with slight slave tendencies that I mentor showed me this quote to get my thoughts on it, and I thought I would share the quote and my thoughts here....

"A sub with a safeword is just a Domme on her knees."

This is a very interesting view on the safeword issue. Does it have any grains of truth to it? There are some Doms and Masters who view a safeword being used as toping from the bottom or not trusting the Dominant. There are others who see the need for one,
Personally, I don't use mine. Read that carefully. I don't use mine. Yes, I do have one, but I don't use it. There are only a few scenes we do that Master would expect me to desire to use my safe word, but I have never used it with Him.
I know if I uttered it, Master would respect it. That's not why I don't use it. I don't use it because I trust Master. I trust Him to never cross the line with me. And He shows me that the trust is well placed.
During a scene with something new, or something that is more intense than usual, He will occasionally stop and ask me if I am ok.He cares enough for His slave to check on her well being.
There is a deep seeded fear in me that, if I do use the safe word, I would be letting Master down in some way. Not submitting to His will. Not giving Him total control.
But that is just me.

Collaring

I have recently started to sort of mentor a Baby Dom, which got me to start thinking of all the different collarings there are out there. I'm going to outline a few of the more formal ones here, but they can be personalized and adjusted to fit each couple's needs and desires.

Gorean Submission/Slave Capture
This is one of the most common High Protocol styles of collaring. I, personally, have been collared in the Gorean ceremony.
In this method of collaring, a girl kneels before her intended Master and offers herself for claiming. This can also be initiated by the Master with the command "Submit." The slave drops to her knees before her intended Master, and with head bowed, raises her crossed wrists above her head towards her intended Master. He then, if accepting of her submission to him, binds her wrists with a bit of binding fiber or rope. If he has a collar, he locks it around her throat at this time, or he fashions one out of the materials handy to him to be replaced by a collar at the first opportunity. This is also the point where the Master will rename the slave or submissive if he desires to do so, thus shedding her old self and becoming nothing more than her Master's slave.
This is a simple ceremony that can have speech added if desired at any point and simple customization can be added.

Ceremony Of The Roses
In the Ceremony of The Roses, the couple each stab their left ring finger with the thorn of a rose and add a drop of blood to the center of a collar. The collar is then placed around the submissive's throat, thus combining them into one being. They are symbolically of one blood now, and the submissive belongs to her Master.
A drop of blood from each partner is then placed on a white silk scarf, which it then wrapped around the hands in a hand fasting manner. This further solidifies their union. It is at this point they are joined as one.
This ceremony is not as open to custom actions as others and is very like a traditional wedding ceremony. It is ofetn paired with a wedding between Dom and sub.

Custom
The collaring can be as custom as you choose. Things can be done that are meaningful to both parties, their own traditions, and their own dynamics. The words said, the actions, how the collar is placed and fastened, even what the collar means to the couple can be completely up to the individual couple.

Enjoy the collar and the process of awarding and wearing one. Make it mean something to you. What my collar means to Master and I will not be the same thing your collar means to you. Customize it. Just make sure all involved parties understand what it means and the intentions behind the proverbial scrap of leather.

Slavery

If the government brought back real and legal slavery, would you sign yourself over to your Owner as His slave?

Yes, yes, yes, and more yes. I know what it means to say yes to this. I have studied how actual slaver were treated. I also know it was up to the individual Master how to treat slaves. I trust Master enough to trust that He would not harm me if I were to sign myself over to Him as a legal slave.

Claiming rights that I have not earned doesn't feel right to me. Claiming limits I do not need to have does not feel right to me. I am only a being for Master to control, my only limits are His, my only rights are those He bestows.

I know I am one of the lucky slaves. Master does not beat me simply because He wants to, He does not hurt me unnecessarily, He does not berate me, He does not insult me or degrade me with malice.

If it were to happen today, I trust Master enough, with my life and beyond, to turn myself over to Him as His legal, full slave.

What Are Your Sexual Limits With Your Partner?

I'm a no limit slave. This means that my only limits are Master's. This has developed through years and years of trust and submission to the same person.
I trust that He will never do anything to harm me, either legally, mentally, emotionally, or physically.
So, I have no limits when it comes to Master.

Here is a link to my slave-sister's journal on this subject:
https://fetlife.com/users/6412687/posts/5096358