Righting The Train....

Most will not know this, because I keep my private feelings and actions just that, private. I don't go plastering my missteps or difficulties all over Fet. I do, occasionally, post them here, but usually only after I have taken the steps to correct it. 

I have taken missteps lately, I have lost my way. But, I am correcting that lost path. Sometimes, something just snaps, and you realize the misdirection of your path. The issue doesn't always arise right away, sometimes, it can take looking at the behavior of others to recognize your issues. 

I have realized that I have gotten way too involved in the drama of Fairy Tale Subs and have let my responsibilities to the local community slide. 

I have been spending way too much time on the Internet and have let my responsibilities here slide. 

I have let my weight balloon and I feel horrible, it has prompted a sort of depression, which has contributed to the other misdirections along the path. It's not an excuse, and I know only I can take responsibility for my actions and my choices to ignore the path to complete happiness and service Master laid out. 

Well, I have pulled out of the drama filled group, I have removed the Fairy Tale Subs from my Fet friends list, I have gone room by room to see what needs to be done first, and I have developed a work out plan. 

Why do all this changing if Master has not demanded it? Because I have let Him down and I know it. Because I know I am better than I have been. Because I know I'm better than the Fairy Tale Subs. Because I know how to please Master. 

This is a public apology to Master. I am sorry for veering so far off the path to happiness You have mapped out. My slave GPS is now fixed and I am back on the correct path, the path You have cleared, the safe path. 

Is breá liom tú, Máistir.