A good start

Well, today has started off pretty good. I have started to do what Master expected me to do all week. Finally, I know. I don't know why, but it just hit me all of a sudden last night that I just needed to start to do as I am supposed to and what Master expects of me outside of the bedroom also to make things go smoothly in our relationship.
We can face anything together that is thrown at us, but only if we both do what is expected of us. And that includes doing my "job."
I am trying, and that is the hard part for me, to get past the trying part and having it continue to the accomplished part. Master said He realized that the positive reward really didn't work and didn't motivate me enough to want to do what I need to do. So, He has asked me to come up with a punishment for Him to consider if things are not accomplished. This may be a test, since Master knows I enjoy pain, so if I suggest something that causes pain, He may think I am just going to slack off in order to receive the punishment, but if it is too harsh, He may think I am trying too hard. So, I guess I really need to think long and hard about what to suggest, all the while trying to NOT earn it, but, instead, earn the reward.
I guess it is just going to be a we will see type of thing. I really want to show Master I can behave properly outside of the bedroom and outside my duties as His sexual slave. I have always struggled with the every day aspects of this kind of relationship. That is my personal goal, by new years, I would like to improve my outside the bedroom service so Master is completely happy and completely impressed with His girl.
I know I have been talking in circles, and I don't know if this will make sense to anyone but me, but that is what matters, right? That it makes sense to me and that I can make heads and tails of it all, lol.
Well, my break is over, I don't want to loose this momentum I have going. I will be back to update later with the results of my work today.